10.10 闲话

《会魔法的老人》

我从出生就是一个自闭小孩
容易被别人一句话给轻易伤害
所以 我在唱台上
不断的摆弄我的肢体
为了阻挡光线 和我眼神里的荒诞
独自在电影院里
观看一部杰作
野火在我的心底燃烧
梦醒生活再被截获
在闪光灯和相机
面前对爷爷的照片别过
把人生中的脆弱通过歌词演说
无法去甄别 这是错的 或者是对的
是real或fake 妈妈我只是累了
我罪恶 在感情上面怀有 一丝愧色
如果我们刨开心脏 你们会说这就对了
我把它放在博物馆里展览
看着一旁熙攘的人群在逐渐汇合
有人在鼓掌 有人哭喊 有人朝他吐痰
却唯独没人 给我擦干我的泪河
故事被晒干
过程都太短
时间可以倒退用我生命来换
过路的人都已谢完了幕
一个人吃饭往往会比中药还再苦
他们只在乎cash oh cash oh cash
我视他们为trash oh trash oh trash
我想要跑到北上广去盖一整栋楼
我知道那些东西不急以后都会有
后来那台电视机前只剩我在换台
后来懂我的人的鬓角都已变的斑白
后来聚拢的人都随着时间滴答滴答散开
直到我 再也不敢把那回忆之书翻开
尝试在周围的窃窃私语
中 寻求治愈
在一张张的字据
里面 去避免失去
可是失去他就是会失去啊
这是所有人和事的结局
我要怎么才能做到豁达
是我的错吗？
我也想把那精致长袍脱下
换种活法
我也想转身拥抱过去
但我不会魔法
若你我相逢在人海里
请你送我一束花
我想要成为 一名 艺术家
或许走到死亡的尽头
那苍白的老人 热情早已不在他的心头
他会失忆的 但会有人把他的生命记忆拼凑
因为有关法老的故事 他们至今还没听够
故事被晒干
过程都太短
时间可以倒退用我生命来换
过路的人都已谢完了幕
一个人吃饭往往会比中药还再苦
他们只在乎cash oh cash oh cash
我视他们为trash oh trash oh trash
我想要跑到北上广去盖一整栋楼
我知道那些东西不急以后都会有

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《Satisfied》

Alright alright
That's what I'm talkin' about
Now everyone give it up for the maid of honor
Angelica Schuyler
A toast to the groom
To the groom
To the groom
To the groom
To the bride
To the bride
To the bride
To the bride
From your sister
Angelica
Angelica
Angelica
Who is always by your side
By your side
By your side
To your union
To the union
To the revolution
And the hope that you provide
You provide
You provide
May you always
Always
Be satisfied
Rewind
Rewind rewind
Helpless sky's sky's
Drownin' in em
Drownin' rewind
I remember that night I just might
Rewind
I remember that night I just might
Rewind
I remember that night I remember that
I remember that night I just might
Regret that night for the rest of my days
I remember those soldier boys
Tripping over themselves to win our praise
I remember that dreamlike candlelight
Like a dream that you can't quite place
But Alexander I'll never forget the first
Time I saw your face
I have never been the same
And when you said "Hi" I forgot my dang name
Set my heart aflame ev'ry part aflame
This is not a game
You strike me as a woman who has never been satisfied
I'm sure I don't know what you mean
You forget yourself
You're like me
I'm never satisfied
Is that right
I have never been satisfied
My name is Angelica Schuyler
Alexander Hamilton
Where's your fam'ly from
Unimportant
There's a million things I haven't done but
Just you wait just you wait
So so so
So this is what it feels like to match wits
With someone at your level
What the hell is the catch
It's
The feeling of freedom of seein' the light
It's Ben Franklin with a key and a kite
You see it right
The conversation lasted two minutes maybe three minutes
Ev'rything we said in total agreement it's
A dream and it's a bit of a dance
A bit of a posture it's a bit of a stance
He's a bit of a flirt but I'm 'a give it a chance
I asked about his fam'ly did you see his answer
His hands started fidgeting he looked askance
He's penniless he's flying by the seat of his pants
Handsome boy does he know it
Peach fuzz and he can't even grow it
I wanna take him far away from this place
Then I turn and see my sister's face and she is
Helpless
And I know she is
Helpless
And her eyes are just
Helpless
And I realize
Three fundamental truths at the exact same time
Where are you taking me
I'm about to change your life
Then by all means lead the way
Number one
I'm a girl in a world in which
My only job is to marry rich
My father has no sons so I'm the one
Who has to social climb for one
So I'm the oldest and the wittiest and the gossip in
New York City is insidious
And Alexander is penniless
Ha that doesn't mean I want him any less
Elizabeth Schuyler
It's a pleasure to meet you
Schuyler
My sister
Number two
He's after me cuz I'm a Schuyler sister
That elevates his status I'd
Have to be naive to set that aside
Maybe that is why I introduce him to Eliza
Now that's his bride
Nice going Angelica he was right
You will never be satisfied
Thank you for all your service
If it takes fighting a war for us to meet
It will have been worth it
I'll leave you to it
Number three
I know my sister like I know my own mind
You will never find anyone as trusting or as kind
If I tell her that I love him she'd be silently resigned
He'd be mine
She would say "I'm fine"
She'd be lying
But when I fantasize at night
It's Alexander's eyes
As I romanticize what might
Have been if I hadn't sized him
Up so quickly
At least my dear Eliza's his wife
At least I keep his eyes in my life
To the groom
To the groom
To the groom
To the groom
To the bride
To the bride
To the bride
To the bride
From your sister
Angelica
Angelica
Angelica
Who is always by your side
By your side
By your side
To your union
To the union to the revolution
And the hope that you provide
You provide
You provide
May you always
Always
Be satisfied
Be satisfied
Be satisfied
Be satisfied
And I know
Be satisfied
Be satisfied
Be satisfied
She'll be happy as his bride
And I know
He will never be satisfied
I will never be satisfied